It's been a rough week...

So I have been shooting video like crazy these last couple of weeks and barely doing anything else, I love it bit yet i am exhausted. A bit disappointed too. I guess I know that I am not going to win every contest i enter but it still hurts when i don't even make the finalist list.
three of my videos this week went that way. First it was my wii bowling video featuring death. out of fourteen videos, it was not one of the top four.
check it out and tel me what you think!!



Then my crackberry video flopped big time. i think my basic mistake there was i entered a blackberry contest using a non-blackberry phone. I think the sincerity of the video becomes compromised because of that point.

and lastly my reel insights video about going green tanked miserably. i admit the piece was not my best work. i filmed my coworker Lance and his family about their views of going green. the family was on a really tight schedule so it was a really quick shoot.i did not get much b-roll at all. In fact i have always been really bad at getting b-roll. i never know what random thing i should film. anyways here is the video!


I got an email today from the ceo of reel insights basically saying good try but not this month. there are 5 prizes for this contest and 6 entrants, the winners will be announced tomorrow. I will be the lone loser for this one.

I shouldn't complain too much because i have had a great deal of luck before now. i guess i am just a bit downhearted. this is my PASSION!! I'm 29 years old putting my career life on hold to go to school and study this stuff and yet in a contest of only 6 documentary videos i finish dead last! I guess i just want to feel like i am learning and becoming a good filmmaker. I have sacrificed a great deal to follow this dream and it is hard to justify those sacrifices when I seem to fail at such simple tasks.

I know however these feelings will pass. i am optimistic for the future. in fact i recognize these contests have literally no bearing on my abilities as a filmmaker. the art i create for myself has little value to the commercial world but means so very much to me. my film art is growing and becoming something substantial. these contests are merely exercises and ways for me to learn new tools. It has been a rough week for me with my videos and for other reasons but that's okay i figure in life there will be a couple of rough weeks along the way.

I have done a few more videos since my lower achieving videos listed above. one is a short just following the kids around as care bears. you can check it out on face book and give it a vote


and the other as my bro put it is pretty much a video for "a multilevel marketing scheme" But i had fun with the animation. it's not entirely finished but the contest deadline approached and this is what i ended up with. i hope to go back and fix it up the way i want it later. check it out:

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